Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day

Yesterday was Pregnancy and Infant Loss Remembrance Day.  It is one of those days you really wish did not have to exist.  Nobody should have to go through the loss of a child, no matter the age of the child.  There was this one blog that I received the link to that I felt was a good one for people to read if they know someone who has had a miscarriage.  I would highly suggest taking a look at this link.  It gives tips on how you should approach a woman who has suffered a miscarriage.  
http://gbbcwellnessblog.com/?p=271


I have been doing really well the past few months at not getting too sad about the fact that after so many months, we are still not pregnant.  I have even been okay when learning of friends who have announced their pregnancies.  Now seeing friends in person who are pregnant...that is a whole other story.  Not quite ready for that.  I think it is the visual reminder of what I don't have that makes it too difficult.  I lost it this week when I watched the most recent episode of Parenthood.  If you do not watch that show, you should start!  It is one of my favorites.  Just when you think your family life is chaotic, the lives of the characters on this show can bring you back to reality.  Anyways, one of the characters has a daughter that is in first or second grade.  She and her husband have been trying to get pregnant for a second time.  They have had a lot of difficulties.  To make matters worse, her brother and sister-in-law get pregnant.  They weren't planning to, as they have two older children.  In the episode I watched, the pregnant sister-in-law gave birth to her little girl and the sister who has been having infertility problems was so excited while visiting in the hospital room.  She was the first one to hold the new baby.  I was crying like a baby during that scene.  I think it is because I have been thinking a lot lately about the possibility of my sister-in-laws getting pregnant in the near future, before I do.  Not saying that will happen, but what if it does?  Will I be able to handle it?  Will I be able to see them?  Will I be able to be excited for them?  


A lot of "what ifs" going on in my head today.