We were and then we weren't...

It has been a roller coaster of a week.  We started off last week on a high of celebrating our 7th anniversary.  We normally don't do much to celebrate, but this year we did go out for dinner at restaurant that was new to us.  It was nice to get out and spend time together. We were also celebrating the fact that for this first time in 4 years we had positive pregnancy tests.  Several to be exact and a blood test to prove it.

And then Thursday happened.  I went in for a repeat blood test and we found out that my pregnancy hormone did not double in 48 hours like it should have.  It could mean one of two things.  It was just a slow growing embryo that would take off soon, or it was going to be a pregnancy that wouldn't be viable and I would miscarry early-on.  I would have to wait until the next Monday to have another blood test to see what changed.

Fast forward to Monday.  My levels dropped by 70.  I was miscarrying.  I knew it was the case based on my symptoms over the weekend.  The fact that I have gone through this before gave me an indication of what the results were going to be.  I go in tomorrow to see how much the level has dropped.  It needs to get to 0 before we can proceed with anything further.  We may wait until winter to do a frozen cycle.  There isn't enough time before I go back to work to start anything now.

It was hard at the end of last week.  I couldn't believe how over the course of three days I went from being excitedly pregnant to the extreme opposite.  It was also a long weekend waiting until Monday to hear officially what was going on.  

A positive was that I did get pregnant after three years of fertility treatments.  It doesn't make it easier to know that I have  become pregnant three times, but have only brought one baby home.