Another Disappointment

I had my beta yesterday, and it was a BFN, like I thought it was going to be. I think the timing of this cycle was off, since I should have had my IUI on Christmas, but had to have it a day earlier.


We are going to take some time off TTC. My job has been so stressful lately, which is not helping any of this. I almost had a mental breakdown yesterday at the end of the day. I was on medication for post-partum depression after my DS was born, but went off it when we were TTC. I think after all this disappointment, I may need to go back on it. We may wait to start again in the summer, when the stress from teaching is not present. In the meantime, I am going to be looking for a second opinion. I would like to see if a new RE would have any other answers to why things are not working. If IVF is the only option, then we know our journey will be done. A new house and a 4 year old in preschool and daycare does not work with spending that much money on something that is not a guarantee. I would feel guilty going into further debt, and having my son not be able to enjoy the opportunities we could be providing him. Who knows if that is what I will feel months from now, but it is what I am feeling now.